{"id":935,"date":"2019-06-23T16:35:33","date_gmt":"2019-06-23T16:35:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/2019\/06\/23\/wisdom-she-callsbased-on-psalm-8-and-proverbs\/"},"modified":"2020-02-15T18:20:08","modified_gmt":"2020-02-15T18:20:08","slug":"wisdom-she-callsbased-on-psalm-8-and-proverbs","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/2019\/06\/23\/wisdom-she-callsbased-on-psalm-8-and-proverbs\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cWisdom, She Calls\u201dbased on Psalm 8 and Proverbs 8:1-4, 22-31"},"content":{"rendered":"<figure class=\"tmblr-full\" data-orig-height=\"1248\" data-orig-width=\"921\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/66.media.tumblr.com\/c2a11ac7e1959e2b48d226225ed379ee\/tumblr_inline_ptk8p5ChkQ1ta4iua_540.jpg\" data-orig-height=\"1248\" data-orig-width=\"921\" \/><\/figure>\n<p>I&rsquo;ve recently gotten<br \/>\nfeedback that many people around here like it when I preach from the<br \/>\nheart, from authenticity, from \u2026 myself, and not JUST from context.<br \/>\n This is a bit of a challenge because the authentic me is sort of a<br \/>\nmystic, and I&rsquo;ve never been entirely clear how comfortable that is<br \/>\nfor all of you. \u00a0However, I&rsquo;m really grateful for feedback, so I&rsquo;m<br \/>\ngoing to give it a try, and trust that you&rsquo;ll continue giving<br \/>\nfeedback if this is not what you were looking for at all. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nToday is Trinity Sunday.<br \/>\nThus, our lectionary readings have given us space to consider the<br \/>\nSpirit, who in Proverbs is the Spirit of God&rsquo;s Wisdom, the firstborn<br \/>\nof creation. \u00a0In its purest, most orthodox<br \/>\nforms, Trinity says that God IS Three Persons that are also One, and<br \/>\nthe love between the 3 Persons is the foundational energy and<br \/>\nmotivation of the universe, from which creation arose, and from which<br \/>\nGod&rsquo;s love for all humanity begins. \u00a0I&rsquo;ve never been able to commit<br \/>\nto an orthodox understanding of Trinity, although I did give it a<br \/>\ngood faith effort for a decade or so. \u00a0I adore this idea of love as<br \/>\nthe foundation of the universe, but I&rsquo;ve had to come to that<br \/>\nconclusion in other ways. \u00a0I don&rsquo;t hold a traditional view of<br \/>\nTrinity, although I think those views can be strikingly beautiful. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nInstead, I&rsquo;ve been most<br \/>\nformed by the thinking of Marjorie Suchocki, professor emerita of<br \/>\ntheology at Claremont School of Theology, and the author of the book<br \/>\n\u201cGod, Christ, Church: A Practical Guide to Process Theology.\u201d \u00a0In<br \/>\nit, she talks about the idea of Trinity as a symbol for the<br \/>\ncomplexity and unity of God. \u00a0She says, \u00a0\u201cGod<br \/>\nas trinity becomes a symbol to indicate the sense in which the unity<br \/>\nof God embraces a complexity of a magnitude grater than which none<br \/>\nother can exist.\u201d<a href=\"https:\/\/mail.google.com\/mail\/u\/0\/#sdfootnote1sym\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><sup>1<\/sup><\/a><br \/>\n In more simple words, she says that God is one and God is infinite.<br \/>\nShe doesn&rsquo;t actually think the specific 3 of Trinity is the point,<br \/>\nbut rather acknowledges that there is inherent value in thinking of<br \/>\nGod as being \u00a0transcendent, immanent, and relational. \u00a0That is God is<br \/>\nbeyond all that is, God is IN all that is, and God is in relationship<br \/>\nto all that is \u2013 and those are three things, so we think of God in<br \/>\nthree ways. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nSuchocki&rsquo;s<br \/>\nidea that Trinity means many and yet one has resonated for me. \u00a0God<br \/>\nis, of course, one. \u00a0We&rsquo;re monotheists!! \u00a0And there is force of love<br \/>\nundergirding and infiltrating all parts of Creation, unifying us all.<br \/>\n At the same time, of course there are many facets to the Divine.<br \/>\nGod is beyond our words, our metaphors, our understanding. \u00a0God is<br \/>\ncomplicated. \u00a0Any aspect of God we attempt to speak about or connect<br \/>\nto is both a part of God AND not the entirety of God. \u00a0God is love,<br \/>\nunconditional all encompassing love!!! \u00a0And, God is also one who<br \/>\nwants justice \u2013 so that good lives and good relationships can be<br \/>\npresent for all people and not just for some. \u00a0And that doesn&rsquo;t<br \/>\nALWAYS feel only like love. \u00a0God is eternal, and yet God is also<br \/>\npresent. \u00a0God is for us, and for each of us, and for all of us, all<br \/>\nat once. \u00a0In these ways, it makes sense to think of God as many, even<br \/>\nthough God is also one.<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIn<br \/>\nsome very similar ways, I think it makes sense to think of ourselves<br \/>\nas many and as one! \u00a0 \u00a0I mean each of us, each person, is both many<br \/>\nand one. \u00a0(Although, come to think of it, we are also one body of<br \/>\nChrist \u2013 one and many.) \u00a0We&rsquo;re now at the mystical point of this<br \/>\nsermon \ud83d\ude09 \u00a0If mystical isn&rsquo;t going to fly for you, you may want to<br \/>\nthink of all of this as development of compassion, although I&rsquo;ll<br \/>\nadmit to you that those are not well differentiated for me.<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nYears<br \/>\nago, my spirituality professor told me about a prayer form called<br \/>\nwith an acroynm FLAG. \u00a0In it you notice a strong emotion and<br \/>\nanthropomorphize that strong emotion as a young child.<br \/>\nThen you ask it:<br \/>\tFear &#8211; what are you afraid of?<br \/>\tLonging &#8211;<br \/>\nwhat do you long for?<br \/>\tAche &#8211; what is your ache\/wound?<br \/>\tGift &#8211;<br \/>\nwhat gift are you trying to offer that I&rsquo;m not receiving?<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nThis<br \/>\nprayer has been a great gift to me over the years, but in recent<br \/>\nyears I&rsquo;ve noticed that it relates to a whole bunch of other areas of<br \/>\nthought who are also looking at \u201cself\u201d in different ways.<br \/>\nBecause this now comes from a lot of disciplines, to explain it I&rsquo;m<br \/>\ngoing to glob them all together like we do when we work with all 4<br \/>\ngospel narratives at once. \u00a0We&rsquo;re going to call it \u201cparts theory.\u201d<br \/>\n Because of how useful it has been in my own prayer life, as well as<br \/>\nin conversations with people, \u00a0it is one of the theories that I now<br \/>\nuse to make sense of human beings- myself and others. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nParts<br \/>\ntheory says that we are a conglomeration of parts. \u00a0When this emerges<br \/>\nout of \u201cnon-violent communication\u201d work, the parts are associated<br \/>\nwith human needs. \u00a0In \u201cFocusing\u201d, the parts are associated with<br \/>\nphysical sensations in various parts of our body. \u00a0In sensorimotor<br \/>\npsychology, parts relate to coping mechanisms necessary for survival,<br \/>\nparticularly in childhood. \u00a0Going back to the prayer form I first met<br \/>\nthis idea in, the young children we imagine are often expressions of<br \/>\nour self and our past. I think it may even be true that in the Center<br \/>\nfor Courage and Renewal Teaching, where we talk about the maps of our<br \/>\nsouls and the various terrain within, that we are actually<br \/>\napproaching parts from another angle. \u00a0Most places I&rsquo;m looking for<br \/>\nunderstanding of how humans work seem to be moving to parts theory.<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nNow,<br \/>\nonce we acknowledge that in our internal landscape there are various<br \/>\nparts doing their own things, then we think about how they relate to<br \/>\neach other and to our self as a whole. \u00a0Parts theory suggests that<br \/>\ndealing with ourselves is a lot like presiding over an unruly Church<br \/>\nCouncil meeting (who, us?) or perhaps an Annual Conference committed<br \/>\nto nonconformity (who, us?). \u00a0Parts tend to have their own points of<br \/>\nview, they remember the things that fit their narratives, they push<br \/>\nthe things that fit their narratives, they ignore things that don&rsquo;t<br \/>\nfit their narratives, and when they want things they ask. \u00a0And when<br \/>\nthey ask, and we ignore them, they get louder (and sometimes meaner)<br \/>\nand this cycle can continue until we have a LOT OF INTERNAL<br \/>\nscreaming. \u00a0Also, parts build connections with other parts, and parts<br \/>\nare antagonistic to other parts. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nIf<br \/>\nyou think of parts as trying to meet needs, this can become clearer.<br \/>\nSo a part that is seeking out <i>peace<\/i><br \/>\nis likely to be well partnered with the parts that seek <i>rest<\/i><br \/>\nand <i>beauty<\/i><br \/>\nand maybe even <i>acceptance.<\/i><br \/>\n However, the part seeking out <i>peace<br \/>\n<\/i>is<br \/>\nlikely in some conflict with the parts seeking out <i>spontaneity<\/i>,<br \/>\n<i>stimulation, <\/i>or<br \/>\neven <i>growth. \u00a0<\/i>And<br \/>\nwhen we&rsquo;re talking about parts that have been harmed in the past,<br \/>\nthis can be pretty strong. \u00a0For example, when a person lived through<br \/>\nabuse as a child, and the abuser was the caregiver, then the natural<br \/>\nhuman instinct to draw close to caregiver for safety and the natural<br \/>\nhuman instinct to run away from harm are in constant conflict&hellip;. and<br \/>\nthose parts are trained to be on constant alert.<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nThere<br \/>\nis also a Part in Charge. \u00a0I have tended towards calling this the<br \/>\n<i>adult self. \u00a0<\/i>While<br \/>\nthe adult self is the moderator\/chair of the council, the truth is<br \/>\nthat sometimes the adult self loses control of the body. \u00a0In parts<br \/>\nlanguage, that means that sometimes other parts hijack the adult<br \/>\nself, and the other parts are the ones running the show \u2013 by which<br \/>\nI mean the body, the facial expressions, the words, the tone, etc.<br \/>\nSo if you think of a recent time when you said or did something that<br \/>\nyou later regretted, and wondered \u201cWhy didn&rsquo;t I have better<br \/>\ncontrol?\u201d the answer is likely that a part hijacked the <i>adult<br \/>\nself<\/i><br \/>\nand \u201cyou\u201d weren&rsquo;t in control at that point.<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nPrayer<br \/>\ncan be a time when we make space for our parts, listen to our parts,<br \/>\ncreate the capacity for empathy for our parts, and stop fighting them<br \/>\nin general. \u00a0The FLAG method works for this, as do many others. \u00a0It<br \/>\ncan also be a time when we teach the parts meditative practice so we<br \/>\ncan all have some much needed peace within. \u00a0Building the capacity to<br \/>\nlisten to ourselves also builds our capacity to listen to each other.<br \/>\n That&rsquo;s one of the goals \u2013 if we are going to be part of building a<br \/>\nmore peaceful and just world, we&rsquo;re going to have to learn how to<br \/>\nfind peace within, and that will likely require learning how to<br \/>\nlisten to (rather than silence) parts. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nMany<br \/>\nforms of contemplative prayer teach us how to be in the present, in<br \/>\nour bodies, and how to be connected to our breath. \u00a0These are<br \/>\nwonderful practices on their own. \u00a0They&rsquo;re also the skills needed to<br \/>\nbring the adult self back from being hijacked. \u00a0In the neuroscience<br \/>\npart of these theories, the parts are mostly in the amygdala part of<br \/>\nthe brain and the adult self is in the prefrontal cortex. \u00a0So<br \/>\nwhatever we can do to THINK, and be PRESENT, helps move us back to<br \/>\nthe prefrontal cortex. \u00a0\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nParts<br \/>\ntheory both feels TRUE, and feels exciting to me. \u00a0I appreciate how<br \/>\ninherently spiritual it is, to listen. \u00a0Now, many parts that we are<br \/>\nfamiliar with speak in \u2026 less than constructive ways. \u00a0 Because of<br \/>\nthat, we&rsquo;re often a bit scared of them. \u00a0However, there is some good<br \/>\nnews. \u00a0The horrid things that parts say are ALWAYS meant to be<br \/>\nhelpful. \u00a0If you actually listen to the things they say, then you can<br \/>\nsometimes figure out how to flip it around to the positive thing the<br \/>\npart wants for you. \u00a0They&rsquo;re shockingly transparent. \u00a0\u201cYou aren&rsquo;t<br \/>\nenough\u201d can mean, \u201cYou were really hurt one time when someone<br \/>\nsaid you weren&rsquo;t enough, and I don&rsquo;t want to you be hurt again, so<br \/>\nI&rsquo;m going to keep your ego small so you don&rsquo;t experience a drop in<br \/>\nself-confidence again.\u201d \u00a0You know, stuff like that.<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nWe&rsquo;ve<br \/>\ntalked about some of this before. \u00a0Some of our parts communicate<br \/>\nthrough criticism, and they manage to tell us we&rsquo;re wrong A LOT. \u00a0My<br \/>\nparts have a lot they want to get done. \u00a0No matter what I&rsquo;m doing,<br \/>\nthey have about 50 other things I should be doing, and they tell me<br \/>\nI&rsquo;d get them done if I were a \u201cgood person\u201d \/ \u201cgood pastor.\u201d<br \/>\nNone of the parts is able to notice that I can&rsquo;t do 51 things at<br \/>\nonce, so my adult self is always having to work at setting<br \/>\npriorities, at listening, and at soothing, so all the parts aren&rsquo;t<br \/>\nscreaming at once that their thing isn&rsquo;t getting done. \u00a0That said,<br \/>\nknowing about parts, thinking in terms of parts, and listening to<br \/>\nparts has quieted things within me significantly, and I experience a<br \/>\nlot less internal angst, and thus more peace. \u00a0(On good days.)<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p>\nDid<br \/>\nyou hear the end of the Proverbs passage? \u00a0In it, Wisdom talks about<br \/>\ndelight \u2013 the delight in being with God, and the delight Wisdom and<br \/>\nGod had in humanity. \u00a0Delight is part of what we&rsquo;re going for, and<br \/>\nthere are many paths to it. \u00a0Finding peace within is a form of making<br \/>\nspace for delight. \u00a0When we can see what&rsquo;s happening, and remain<br \/>\npresent and loving, there is a LOT of delight available to us. \u00a0It<br \/>\nreally is a bit like traditional Trinitarian doctrine: love spills<br \/>\nout. \u00a0Thanks be for that. \u00a0Amen\n<\/p>\n<p>\n<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/mail.google.com\/mail\/u\/0\/#sdfootnote1anc\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">1<\/a>Marjorie<br \/>\n\tSuchocki, 229.<\/p>\n<p>&ndash; <\/p>\n<p>Rev. Sara E. Baron<br \/>First United Methodist Church of Schenectady<br \/>603 State St. Schenectady, NY 12305<br \/>Pronouns: she\/her\/hers<br \/><a href=\"http:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/\">http:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/<\/a><br \/>\u2028https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/FUMCSchenectady<\/p>\n<p><\/p>\n<p>June 16, 2019<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&rsquo;ve recently gotten feedback that many people around here like it when I preach from the heart, from authenticity, from &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/2019\/06\/23\/wisdom-she-callsbased-on-psalm-8-and-proverbs\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">\u201cWisdom, She Calls\u201dbased on Psalm 8 and Proverbs 8:1-4, 22-31<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[34,38,28,39,33,174,178,175,177,56,173,176],"class_list":["post-935","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-sermons","tag-fumc-schenectady","tag-progressive-christianity","tag-rev-sara-e-baron","tag-thinking-church","tag-umc","tag-god-is-love","tag-lady-wisdom","tag-mysticism","tag-proverbs","tag-schenectady","tag-sorry-world-for-the-umc","tag-trinity-sorta"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/935","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=935"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/935\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1150,"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/935\/revisions\/1150"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=935"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=935"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fumcschenectady.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=935"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}